Self-Manipulation
Gradual sadness,
Why must you disturb me?
I thought you were gone,
Yet you reappear.
I know no life without your presence,
I know no life of love.
You are so greatly accepted,
You’ve become my state of mind,
Why must this be so?
You mask pain with pain,
And lies with lies,
And hide tears with more tears,
As if this will solve something.
It’s self-Destructive,
It’s self Absolving,
It’s self-manipulation.
You tear me apart,
You put me back together,
You make no sense of me.
I cannot trust my feelings,
Nor anyone else,
And certainly not what I see.

False Hope
I will not find false hope in you,
I’d prefer not to be let down,
The worlds slow and so very loanly,
All I want is out.
I do not need anyone,
Although, they believe they need me,
I will not trust,
I will not find false hope in you.
Im looking at them, and there’s no one there,
You noticed me,
And I’ve been shot down,
I will not find false hope in you.
Everything’s obscured now,
Everything’s so bleak,
You want me to let you in,
I will not find false hope in you.
Im tired of this life I live,
I want to enjoy myself,
I come to you yet again,
And I have found false hope in you.

Change

I look out into the world,
With disgust and hate,
For this hideous planet,
Is in a pathetic state.
You all the same, I know you’ll never change,
Your all fucked up,
And completely deranged.
I hold no pity,
And I really don’t care,
There’s nothing alike about us,
There’s nothing that we share.
Don’t ponder these words,
They only hold truth,
Your body’s eighty years old,
Yet, you have the mind of a youth.
So swallow your anger,
And wipe away your tears,
Because this is the way,
We have dealt with things for years.


Focus

You hide behind this façade,
I don’t think you even know the truth.
You wait for others to solve your problems,
Because you don’t know what to do.
You hide behind your make-up,
And your plastic smile.
Your eyes so covered with film,
I doubt you even see me.
I don’t care for those who worship the media,
I don’t believe in those who lie.
You don’t understand the story,
It tells how life really goes.
But you’re hiding behind your idiocy,
Your oblivious to what I say.
It’s sad how many souls are lost,
And how no one seems to notice.
It’s sad how people love their lives,
Everything so out of focus.


Im enticed by the rain,
Do you understand that?
It’s just a minor point,
But somehow it means so much.